anxiety

Russ told me last night that he might go stay the night Saturday night with him mom. (She just had knee surgery) And a wave of anxiety rushed over me. I am starting already to plot ways of minimizing the time I will have to be alone. I haven't spent the night by myself in over a year now. I'm not sure how I'm going to feel.

And I know I can't tell him how I feel about it b/c it's something he has/needs to do and I don't want him to feel bad. My issue is my issue and I'm just going to have to deal with it.